In June 1981, at the age of 16 years old, I had an abortion. That event significantly changed my life and redesigned who I was. I won’t go into all the details (if you want them I will gladly share) but the one moment I will share here is that the moment I watched my precious baby being taken out in a trash bag – that moment defined my life. I considered myself trash for what I had done and I began a life of self-destructive behaviors that almost destroyed me.
This past year in February, I was finally healed of 33 years of
self-loathing and self-hatred for that horrible thing I committed so long ago. I finally understood what God’s grace and sacrifice truly meant in my life. I learned that the concept of “forgiving myself” is not only NOT Biblical but truly sinful. Forgiving myself is NOT in my job description. I had placed my abortion above the sacrificial act of my Savior’s death on the cross and had refused HIS forgiveness when I had given my life to Him back in October 1987. I was able to accept the truth of scripture that all my sins were forgiven except that one I had committed at the age of 16.
This year, as I remembered my Savior’s birth at Christmas and celebrate a New Year, I will be rejoicing in what His birth really means – I celebrate His birth because of the sacrifice of the Cross that came later in His precious life. I am looking forward to what 2015 has in store!!
I would like to share with anyone reading this that no matter what you have done – no matter what that unforgivable sin you have committed – please know that it is NOT above our Savior’s Cross. He died specifically for any and all sins you have committed in your life even those that seem unpardonable.
Cling to His grace and accept His forgiveness and rejoice in His birth this year as you fully understand the why’s of why He came – to die and rise specifically for you! No sin is too great or too heavy for the Cross. Lay it down and accept the most important gift you will ever receive this Holiday Season – forgiveness and peace.