As I sit here waiting to go to brunch with my precious children, my heart is experiencing many different emotions.
I am elated at being the mother of 5 beautiful amazing children. I am overjoyed at being a part of the lives of 8 other amazing children that my husband Dan has brought into my life. I love being the mother of my sensitive Dachshund (Sherman) and my not-all-there Chihuahua, Arnold.
But I am also blessed to be the mother of two young men that are in Heaven with the Lord – John and Nathan. If you have read any of my other blogs you know I had an abortion at the age of 16. I also had a miscarriage later in life.
Before my abortion healing last year I had never given much thought of my motherhood to my two beautiful children in Heaven. After aborting my son John, I never felt I could celebrate being his mother since I had taken his life. My other son, Nathan, I hadn’t really given too much thought after the miscarriage since it would bring up so much of the pain of the previous abortion. But now after the healing has occurred, I know now that I CAN and I WILL celebrate the lives of ALL my children – 7 in all – this Mother’s Day.
I have learned through my healing that the first thing my two precious babies heard outside my womb was the sound of angels praising our Lord. The first thing they felt were the arms of our Savior as he held them and the first thing they saw was the loving face of Jesus as He welcomed them into His kingdom. I can rejoice in knowing that they have been by our Father’s side since the moment of their deaths here on earth.
For any of my sisters out there who have experienced the loss of a precious child/children by the devastation of abortion please KNOW this…our Father in Heaven has heard your cries of despair and of sorrow. He knows your mother’s heart is sorry for what you did and He HAS forgiven you. What’s more your precious child or children have forgiven you too. They celebrate your life as their mommy and they are waiting to see you for the first time when you make it to Heaven to embrace them.
Meanwhile know this also, they are safe by our Savior’s side and they are living their lives serving Him and praising His name. Be comforted by this thought as you celebrate today with or without your children here on earth and most definitely with your child or children in Heaven.
Happy Mother’s Day!!